Anticipation

Predicting...

Expecting....

Suspense all over..

Here I am full of Prediction, Expectation, Haunch...

Will I get it or not? It would be wonderful if you get it. what if I don't? Heyy that wouldn't be a problem for you. I want it, I have been waiting for it a long time. Be cool man, you will get it..........

The war of words between me and conscience continues.... Until Some result chucks out....

That is anticipation.... It can never be killed!!

Right or Wrong n Excitement

Right / Wrong?

There are always 2 aspects of everything - Right or Wrong ?

The very first question One asks oneself  is whether  am I doing do the right thing? or wrong?. This question hunts all through the process....

May be stock brokerage, making high end financial decisions, counter terrorist plan to Sending children to school, choosing the best dress for the day... Right or wrong lingers without a question...

Right/wrong pursues the man till he decides to make a decision.... After he decides, there is no getting back.... His decision might be right or wrong... But there is nothing he can do about it... expect feel happy to the fullest or sober enough to kill himself...

But what makes him get going is the 'excitement' where his decision is taking to. The risk he put in, might end a disaster or a winner... but who knows whats in the store... except excitement!!...

So my friend, Listen, Its not about right or wrong... its the excitement!!.... So get going...

My convocation day.....

Aug 31st - a day to be remembered...

Woke in the morning at 6:30 AM. Sameep, Himanshu and Ranjit are asleep. Mihir was on phone. I am yet to get trousers(from tailor) and shirts(from laundry). I drove the bike to both the stores at 7 AM. None were open. My heart sunk. I went to a barber to have a shave. And again drove over the stores. "None were open!". Back to apartment. Kept calling the number on the slip(tailor's). "No reply". I did not have another dress washed/ as a substitute of 'just-in-case'. Alas!

I was searching all over the apartment so that I can get a 'danka kapada' to put on and show up at convocation. suddenly, my mobile rung. Call from the tailor!!. Went to tailor and got the trousers :) :D. BTW went to laundry store- not yet opened!! :(.. Asked the near-by shows and decided not to waste any time. Went straight to the apartment, Took a shirt and ironed it. Took a bath, put on clothes. Took 'set wet'(:P) deodorant and sprayed it over entire dress(you know any engg graduate's shirt won't be washed for a minimum of  a month!).

On bike to convocation with Sameep. Got an hour to meet friends and spoke on different issues and missed those who did not show up. Convocation started, quiet boring actually, you know all the rules n stuff!. After the ceremony, everyone was beaming to cameras. the entire hall is radiating the happiness of the graduates. Institute lunch was ok ok period.

Was sick of the flashes of cameras. Went to flat, changed the clothes and dived into swimming pool!...

What I wrote is entirely materialistic...  What I felt is entirely different.. A all total different feel when I registered for the first semester when I was unknown and others are strangers.. Now, I know everyone one of them, what they are n what they will be.. I know the bonding I shared with them.. I know what I hated the most and What I liked the most... Hell with what I know... I just miss you all....


I remember Siddharth working out in my room in 1st year at IIT Kgp. I remember me and Danish playing Ping- Pong and Tennis. I remember those nights filled with Volley ball and cricket. It took 7 months to know the guys who are going to study at IIT bhubaneswar. A wonderful trip to Bhubaneswar on Feb 12th is soo superb that till now i reminisce those moments.

Thanks Chandrika and Gaurav for getting along with me in labs. Abhimanyu Panwar, I missed you a hell lot in convo, you are genious, meet you some day soon. Deepak, Avinash, Santosh, Siddharath, Surya and Aravind , you will remain my best buddies... Vkc, siva, ghanta, levi and sai krishna, I hope you will remember as 'killjoy'. Asish and gang(Awani, cheeku, jandu, mayank, ajay,Rohin), hope u will miss me finding a guy like me to prank. Kiran, chandan and sukirtha, though the ultra-social but simple. Pkc, anu, bharat, sudheer, suresh- talk only cricket, see only tollywood movies. Himanshu "mein pair sey martha hain''(you took a toll on my Hindi diction)... Mihir, Vasu and sahil the educators!!.... Sahil, you are good at heart, be good at work too.. Special to mention Radhakanth (Please dont share secrets with this fatso)the gossipmonger!! Anuj and sujit - Fundebhaji bandh kar!! :P

I might missed some but I will make sure they will not miss me.. SO here it is "My convocation feelings"

Pic on convocation day

   

The secret of Nagas

                            Amish Tripati's book 2 of the shiva trilogy "The secrets of Naga" is super fictional, wonderfully knitted and fabulous read. It took me 3 sittings of each 3 hrs to complete the book in two days. Fight with Naga in the forest to finding Brahaspathi in Panchavati, the journey has been quite a learning one. Though the theme of the trilogy is to find the existence of Good and evil in the world, it diversifies into simple fundamentals of way of life. It is not only the journey of Shiva to find the evil, It will be our own to understand why we act capriciously sometimes and why steadily other-times. The book clearly shows us the path of enlightenment on  how to discover the evil within us and do good for ablution of our sins in this given birth. I liked the repeating phrase "Good and evil are opposite sides of a same coin."

                             The character of Lord Shiva is perfectly etched to say why he stands out. Shiva always tried to find answers and when he found out, he changed his perception about someone or something and cleared his mind to find solutions. His life all through the book inspires a life.

                              According to Hindu myth, Shiva is the Supreme god and has five important works: creator, preserver, destroyer, concealer, and revealer. This indistinguishably says that we should lead our life in benevolent as well as fearsome forms.


The book is  an eye-opener for me... Hope it will do the same to you too.. enjoy the read...

Fear of Failure....

There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: "The fear of failure"…..

Paulo Coelho!

Fear and Failure go side-by-side almost all the times. People relate failure to fear. Why does one have 'fear of failure'? Why does one need to have 'fear of failure'? are the two intriguing questions which I thought were worth explaining.

Why does one have 'fear of failure'? One of the many reasons might be the unpreparedness and possibly trying some trial and error method at every crucial moment. Another reason might be the fear of competition wrecking your nerves. But the main reason I consider is,  the craving for success induces the fear of failure. And it is why one needs have 'fear of failure'!

I may sound weird to many though who say fear spifflicates success! then what drives you to success? Self-motivation, success hungry, et al come up from the guys who preach '7 ways to success','1000 ways to loose fear' stuff. But in actual it's your 'fear of failure' which drives you to work hard and find a way to success. Who succumbs to 'fear of failure' can never find a route to success.....

One has to turn the failure to success....... and that one is the god!

"We climb to heaven most often on the ruins of our cherished plans, finding our failures were successes."  - Amos Alcott

Share and Inspire....

Share and Inspire... Two good words and two good activities which good people do.

What would we have or would have known  if our ancestors did not share?? Too rude to start but yes, where would we have been if anyone did not share, did not make a cultural or technology exchange.. Surely we would have been in caves in this modern world(a bit sarcastic though!). 

Forget it... what has 'Sharing and inspiring' to do with my life? As far I know, the first time I was sharing  a chocolate with my brother when I was 4. What did I get by that incident? bro-ness from my brother!! I do remember class-toppers(my competitors, mainly girls) in school never used to share knowledge with anyone. I am sure, no one would have shared with them what they did not share.

 Sharing is contiguous! Once sharing starts, no one can stop it!. You can see, the amount of posts share on FB, the spiral web where you find a link to a link which again points to another link. It literally does not end, unless you try to put an end to it.

What actually sharing does? It inspires.....

Inspiration is what you feel when you see a stalwart in the field which you have immense interest or by reading a book which virtually elevates your morality or watching a movie who influences the soul deep within. Here is my first inspiration, Bill Gates, for being the richest man but not for what he did in the field of computers. "The richest man" is what that attracted me because I used to like money and even now too. He being the richest man has somehow made me consume and stand up and say "I want to be the richest person in the world".. well that's the aspiration!! :P

Many will be inspired by a many who they come across!!.. I don't underestimate myself, I might inspired quite a many(my guess!! :D). We actually don't know whom we inspired; when we inspired, but the way we share, the way we work will inspire a millennium!!

So start sharing and inspiring....... 

Odisha - the 8th Continent

The title is no weirdo for those who moved to Odisha on some purpose like tour, education, et al.

There are some reasons!. Its one of the few places where there is no difference between potato and meat. Differently put in, It is the only place on the earth, where you find Chicken, mutton, fish in potato curry!!. I sometimes feel that people don't like to serve others. I always think why Odisha is still considered a poor state, given the mineral prosperity and large cultivable land with vast water resources. Though I didn't get a clear explanation for myself, I weigh the cause on the attitude and system of Odia life, their reluctance to new cultural, technical and methodical invasions. To the fact, only 2 % of entire population are Muslim and 2.4 % Christians(94.3 % are Hindu).

Odisha's roadside vendors never try to learn much. They are always content with what they get. Once it happened that, Himanshu wanted a dozen bananas, he asked the vendor "what is the price of a single banana?", the reply was Rs5. Himanshu asked the vendor, "I will take 12 bananas, sell me at Rs50".Here comes the immediate a big 'NO' from the vendor and goes on proclaiming "I will not sell bananas a rupee less". What we found is, they are letting the fruits rot, but not selling a rupee less. Till now we are unable to crack the "marketing or selling" strategy of these vendors.

I am not showing my sarcasm here. I am just relating to the behavioral aspect of some people, I come across the street. They never smile at a stranger, never do they say hello. I personally feel that Odisha should open up and be able to provide good hospitality and service. Though tourism is a large industry here, you don't find much development on the line. People here don't like competitiveness which I don't understand why.

I have been staying here since 2009. If I commemorate my past, Only a few moments I was happy about being in Odisha. though few moments relate to awesome Odia 'sweets', time spent with friends at IIT and wildness of Odisha. You will surely enjoy going to beaches and staying there at sunset. I explored places around Bhubaneswar only. I would like to visit  Sambalpur and Dhenkanal which have huge forest reserves. I know some the people whom I really like to be with and associate.

The above are some of the some of the problems we face in Odia, I guess some of Odia acquaintances also feel the same. A change in conduct, opening up to the wind of progression.

I guess to understand Odisha, I should be part of Odisha which I never gave a thought. From today, I find myself a way to be part and lead a happy go life in Odisha.

Preetam if you reading this, this isn't about your kind of people. You are really good.

The 8th continent